This blog is dedicated to my beautiful daughter, Shayna Elayne Smith, who passed from this world in June 2015.
Shayna continues to guide, inspire, push, and prod me. She has shown me signs of her continued and remains a daily presence in my life.
She is my inspiration for the work I do.
Day 2044- The New New Normal
The saying goes, “ The only thing constant in life is change.” Here we go again. Four days ago my wife took a full-time job. This is the first time she’s worked full-time out of the house since Kyle was born over twenty-four years ago. I think of the days when the house was full. […]
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Day 2033- Turn Your Eyes
When this world becomes overwhelming, I think of Home. Being human is hard because we are both this biological creation and divine simultaneously. We have to remain grounded to take care of the things of Earth. But, if we get too grounded, this world can be overwhelming. So, life is about balance, shifting that perspective […]
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Day 2028- Christmas 2020
Christmas 2020 it’s the sixth Christmas since Shayna passed away in June of 2015. Over the years, I’ve learned not to anticipate Christmas as much as I used to-, whether I’m expecting it to be good or bad. Let’s just wait and see what the day brings is my new motto. Expectations lead to disappointment. […]
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Day 2024- Solipsism In My Dream
My dreams have been becoming more lucid. They don’t always make sense. But, I find myself, in my dream, questioning the reality of the dream. I’ve begun to notice when things in the dream state don’t add up. In this recent dream, I was walking across a long walking bridge. There were several three-foot tall […]
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Grief 2 Growth Podcast Bonus Episode- 2,000 Days A.S.
2,000 days 48,000 hours 5.479 years That’s how long it’s been since my life changed forever. June 24th, 2015 was the day that my daughter Shayna Elayne left this Earthly plane. Today is December 14th, 2020 This morning I woke up and thought about how things have changed since June 24th, 2015. I got up, […]
Keep goingDay 1996- Shayna Wink
Today, the day of my mother’s birthday, I received this email from a subscriber to my YouTube channel. Shayna is always up to something. Good evening, Brian: I hope you and your family had gentle thanksgiving! I wanted to share something that I saw today on my way home from work, which brought me […]
Keep goingDay 1975- A Little Minx Sign
This isn’t so much a sign from Shayna necessarily as a sign from the universe. Or maybe it is a sign from Shayna. You decide. Yesterday, I saw an ad for an app to create a daemon for myself as in the HBO Series His Dark Materials. After answering some questions, I got a spirit […]
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Medium Becky Hesseltine
I had a reading with Becky Hesseltine as part of a certification program. The protocol was that she did not know my name or anything personal about me. I connected with her via Zoom. The meeting was set up by a third party. Until the moment I got on the call, Becky knew nothing about […]
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Day 1940- A Sign
My friend, Kathy Wyenandt is running for State Senator. This morning is a foggy morning and I take my walk around sunrise, as I always do. There are tons of political signs in the yards now. No big deal. I note which of my neighbors are supporting who and I move along. As I’m headed […]
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Day 1932- Public Apology to Daniel John
I am a host of some of the Helping Parents Heal meetings. I’ve seen Daniel John read before last night and during our interviews, he’s brought through little things about Shayna. Last night, as I was interviewing Daniel for Helping Parents Heal, he mentioned a sign that Shayna used to give us.He also told my […]
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Day 1764- Shayna Making Connections
I don’t know exactly what is happening. Weird stuff has been happening in our house. My iPhone went unresponsive. Then, Tywana’s phone. Then, my iPad. Then, her Fitbit. All just weird random things that were eventually all fixed after several attempts. Kayla’s work laptop stopped working. Then, her personal laptop stopped working. Both were eventually […]
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Day 1736- We Are All Grieving Now- Coronavirus Lockdown Blues
You may be thinking; I’m not grieving. I haven’t lost anyone. We tend to associate grief with the loss of a person but the loss of life. But grief can come about with any significant loss in our life, whether it’s a loss of income, loss of a job, loss of freedom, loss of a […]
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Day 1700- Dream or Journey?
I woke up this morning from a dream. But, it was more like a journey than a dream. Dreams are usually fleeting snippets, at least in my memory. This dream had no less than six location changes. It was partially lucid as in there was a moment when I realized I was dreaming as I […]
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Grief 2 Growth Podcast- Sarah Brassard- Making Self-Care Your Sacred Priority Ep. 51
For the last 20 years, Sarah Brassard has been guiding women from a place of struggle in life to one of grace, peace, and ease. She does this through her signature process of self-care. I was thrilled to learn that Sarah’s process of self-care isn’t “one more thing to do.” It’s intentionally an easy process […]
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