Day 4- Ha Satan Whispers
Every morning when I wake up it’s a terrifying realization. “What is happening with her body now?” though I know intellectually she left it long ago.I go over all the things we will never do again. I count all the ways I will miss her. Today though there is something new. Satan whispers in my […]
Keep ReadingDay 4- More Tears
I wake up today to more tears. A good cry every morning before getting out of bed is the new normal. My friends and family are rallying around me in unbelievable ways. Food has been brought to the house. Everyone asks what she can do. Gestures are made. Offers to do anything and everything I […]
Keep ReadingDay 3- The Funeral Home and the call from the Coroner
Another day. I wake up to a glimmer of hope it’s a nightmare. It was just a glimmer of hope today less than yesterday, then it’s gone. Another 1,000 tears I had no idea there were so many ways to cry. Racking sobs of absolute devastation Weeping from deep sadness Tears of anger Tears of […]
Keep ReadingDay 1- The Organ Donor Call
I forgot to include this on day one. We get home from the hospital after receiving the shock of our lives. My parents and brother have driven in from two hours away and are helping us cope. There is a voicemail on the phone. I check it. It’s LifeChoice with a “time-sensitive” message. Anything is […]
Keep ReadingDay 2- Maybe It Was a Dream
I wake often. Maybe I’m awake more than I’m asleep. The first thought is always, “Did it really happen? Is she really gone?” I mean Shayna was healthy and athletic and 15. She went to bed Tuesday night and didn’t wake up yesterday morning. Then open my eyes and realize it wasn’t a dream. Next […]
Keep ReadingDay 1- She’s Gone
Yesterday morning I was sitting at my desk, doing my normal Facebook thing. I had just been out for a 4.5 mile walk. My wife had been working out and had gone to the basement to begin her day’s work. Shayna was supposed to come down and help her, but Shayna had overslept. Ty texted […]
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