Brian, you can’t set a deadline or pace for going through this endurance test of grief. It has its own pace. It’s like rafting on a mighty river… You have to steer the boat and avoid the obstacles that can flip you, avoid falling out of the boat or losing and oar (you know the expression “He has only one oar in the water”), steer into eddys when you need a break, and eventually you’ll get into some calm flat water. Eventually, you’ll make it the whole way. And you will remember the best parts of the trip… life with your beloved angel, wish that you could take the trip again, and know that in the blink of an eye (this life here) you will be together again. Keep paddling… You can do this.