It’s April 7th and spring has finally arrived in Ohio. Tywana’s out of the country on a cruise. So, I have a lot of solitude this weekend. This morning I’m up early out for my walk because I have a full agenda. The temperatures in the morning are above 50º, warm enough for me to […]
Category: My Day (Shayna Elayne)
Day 1374- The Voice
Imposter syndrome (also known as imposter phenomenon, impostorism, fraud syndrome or the imposter experience) is a psychological pattern in which an individual doubts their accomplishments and has a persistent internalized fear of being exposed as a “fraud”. I’ve dealt with the imposter syndrome my entire life. It was only in the last twenty years or so that I learned there was a […]
Day 1368- A Father’s Love
A father recently called me and opened the conversation with “I think there’s something wrong with me.” I’ll call him Donnie. His son was murdered six months ago. People in his family are telling him he is doing grief wrong. He continued “I know a father’s love for a child is different from a mother’s.” […]
Day 1356- Appearance on The Dana Experiment
Thanks to those of you who tried to listen to me on the radio program I was on last week. I have the audio file now. So, if you’re interested, here it is:
Day 1355- 4th Annual Shayna’s Shining Stars Walk
The official race title is the Shamrock Shuffle. But, for my family, it’s the day we get together to memorialize Shayna. For us, it’s Shayna’s Shining Stars Walk. During the gatherings at Thanksgiving, Christmas, etc. we all think about Shayna. Some of us talk about her. Some of us avoid talking about her. This day […]
Day 1340- Watch Your Language
Today I meet a friend for brunch. On this post-material (nod to Gary Schwartz) Shayna journey, Bill has been there every step. He led Shayna’s memorial service and he and I have taken long walks regularly where he’s helped me process this. I’ve said things to Bill I wouldn’t say to many other people. As […]
Day 1337- Do Not Despise These Small Beginnings
I have a tendency to minimize the good things and emphasize the bad. Losses I remember. Victories, I take in stride. I am turning that around. It’s mid-February, we are already a month and a half in. I am acknowledging several beginnings this year. Tywana’s got a new job. Kayla will be graduating in a […]
Day 1317- Home and Dry
This silver bird takes me ‘cross the skyJust one more hour and I’ll be home and dry‘Cross the ocean, way above the clouds I come stealingFeeling tired, but I feel good‘Cause I did everything I said I wouldI think of you and I know how you’ll be feeling I got to see you, I got […]
Day 1303- What’s Happening
The mundane greeting “What’s happening?” is often met with a “Not much”. No one really wants to know everything that’s going on in your life. Sometimes, I want to tell them what is happening. This morning, the guy I helped run a focus group for his upcoming book/course, emailed me and asked me for an […]
Day 1299- Happy Birthday Baby
January 13th, 2019- One thousand two hundred and ninety-nine days since Shayna’s “heavenly birthday.” Three weeks after Christmas, we finally had Tywana’s family in for the weekend to wrap up the Christmas celebration of 2018. This winter has been wet, gray, and somewhat cold, but nothing like the bitter cold of January 2000, the year […]
