Sometimes it’s just all too much. We wonder why me, why now, how much more am I supposed to take? I’m on Facebook and I see my cousin’s daughter posted a picture of her and her son with the simple status update “feeling angry”. I wonder what’s up. Tanika has been doing well. She’s just […]
Category: My Mood
Day 1107- The Fourth Fourth
July 4th, Independence Day. It’s a day for celebration. With the day landing on a Wednesday this year everyone’s undecided about whether the weekend before or the weekend after is the holiday weekend. When you own your own business, often it’s neither. Our neighbors decide to have a get together on the eve of the […]
Day 1097- Praying For Peace
Yesterday was Shayna’s third angel day. It was rougher than I expected. It was much rougher than I expected. The grief was as raw as it was that first week. It took me by total surprise. I was hoping it would be merely another day, a milestone I would wave at as I passed by. […]
Day 1096- Never Gone. Never Forgotten.
Today it’s three years. Three years since I last hugged Shayna, kissed her, or heard her sassy voice. Three years of living an unimaginable life. Three years of change. Three years of tears. Three years of growth. And, three years, closer to the day we are reunited without this veil. I don’t have anything profound […]
Day 1095- Bear Hug
It’s been another rough week. People say “finally Friday”, but when you own your own business, and it’s struggling, the 5 o’clock whistle on Friday doesn’t bring any real relief. I usually sleep very well. This week I’ve been waking up around 5 AM ready to go. Let’s try something else. Nothing I try bears […]
Day 1093- Be Kind To Brian Day
I’m taking a course on manifesting the life I want. I’m on day 5 of a 10-day session. I’m working on gratitude because that’s a big part of this manifesting thing. This is all so foreign to me, but I’m doing it. Today, I wake up thinking about a problem I’ve been trying to find a […]
Day 1092- A Prophet Is Not Without Honor…
Jesus said to them, “A prophet is not without honor except in his own town, among his relatives and in his own home.” I do love compliments, yet I’m often embarrassed to say what I think to the person when I get a compliment. I so often feel that they have not gone far enough.- […]
Day 1089- Father’s Day 2018
It’s Father’s Day. This is the third Father’s Day without Shayna. Her angel date is just a few days from now, precisely one week. Our last Father’s Day together, we had steak. If I remember correctly, Kayla wasn’t here. Little did I know that would be my last one with her. Kayla was home last […]
Day 1067- Coming Out Of The Dark
Why be afraid if I’m not alone Though life is never easy the rest is unknown Up to now for me it’s been hands against stone Spent each and every moment Searching for what to believe Coming out of the dark, I finally see the light now It’s shining on me Coming out of […]
Day 1046- Doctor’s Visit
My prescriptions are running out so I have to go to the doctor. I detest going to the doctor. The idea of going in to be checked out to look for things that are wrong when you feel fine seems counter-productive to me. I dropped the statin a few years ago because the science of […]