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Today in my Facebook news feed I saw a picture I posted one year ago today of Shayna right after she had her hair cut short. The picture was taken Easter last year and was one of the last pictures we have of her.  Little did we know in just  a few short weeks how […]

Yesterday Tywana told me that she was concerned about the amount of alcohol I am drinking. She’s worried about my liver. She’s also concerned about me smoking cigars. She’s worried about my lungs. She’s also concerned about my colon. I haven’t had a colonoscopy and I’m 55. She’s concerned about my prostate. Prostate cancer runs […]

Several months ago I was with a friend who told me that the shock and/or denial of having a child die could last for a year or more. “Not me.” I thought. I can get through this faster than that. In less than two weeks it will be a year since Shayna passed. Not a […]

Last night we had a close call in one of the groups I’m in on Facebook.  The good news is I think all ended well.  A new member who had seemed despondent decided it was time to give up on life and go join her departed child.  A long story short, some people quickly jumped […]

I am neither the mind, nor the intellect,nor the ego, nor the mind stuff.I am neither the body, nor the changes of the body.I am neither the senses of hearing, taste, smell or sight.Nor am i ether, the earth, the fire, the air.I am existence absolute, knowledge absolute, bliss absolute. I am Shiva, I am […]

It’s a weekend day in June. This must be a graduation party. I’ve lost track of how many we’ve attended and how many more we have to go. This is the first weekend in June, but this is our third or fourth graduation party. It’s a neighbor’s daughter that we’ve known since she was born, […]

Muhammad Ali, the great boxer, promoter and inspirational figure made his transition last night. I don’t say he died because in the world I now live in, I don’t see people dying. I see people going home. I see people graduating. I see people completing their missions. I old enough to remember when Cassius Clay […]

This fucking sucks.   Some days I can get through, here behind the curtain, pulling the levers, pushing the buttons giving the illusion of competence and control and some days I feel like Toto has run behind the curtain and exposed me. Today is one of the latter.  I meet with my financial planner today. […]