Today in my Facebook news feed I saw a picture I posted one year ago today of Shayna right after she had her hair cut short. The picture was taken Easter last year and was one of the last pictures we have of her. Little did we know in just a few short weeks how […]
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Day 354- This Body Of Death
Yesterday Tywana told me that she was concerned about the amount of alcohol I am drinking. She’s worried about my liver. She’s also concerned about me smoking cigars. She’s worried about my lungs. She’s also concerned about my colon. I haven’t had a colonoscopy and I’m 55. She’s concerned about my prostate. Prostate cancer runs […]
Day 353- Another Synchronicity
I’m currently reading a book by an author, Paul Davids. The book is excellent. It’s titled “An Atheist In Heaven” and it documents approximately 100 signs from a guy who was an atheist after he passed on. He was a complete skeptic with no belief in the afterlife whatsoever, but he told his friends he would […]
Day 352- Still Shocking
Several months ago I was with a friend who told me that the shock and/or denial of having a child die could last for a year or more. “Not me.” I thought. I can get through this faster than that. In less than two weeks it will be a year since Shayna passed. Not a […]
Day 351- Don’t Try Suicide
Last night we had a close call in one of the groups I’m in on Facebook. The good news is I think all ended well. A new member who had seemed despondent decided it was time to give up on life and go join her departed child. A long story short, some people quickly jumped […]
Day 350- I Am Neither The Body Nor The Changes Of The Body
I am neither the mind, nor the intellect,nor the ego, nor the mind stuff.I am neither the body, nor the changes of the body.I am neither the senses of hearing, taste, smell or sight.Nor am i ether, the earth, the fire, the air.I am existence absolute, knowledge absolute, bliss absolute. I am Shiva, I am […]
Day 349-Awkward Moment
It’s a weekend day in June. This must be a graduation party. I’ve lost track of how many we’ve attended and how many more we have to go. This is the first weekend in June, but this is our third or fourth graduation party. It’s a neighbor’s daughter that we’ve known since she was born, […]
Day 348- The Greatest of All Time Has Made His Transition
Muhammad Ali, the great boxer, promoter and inspirational figure made his transition last night. I don’t say he died because in the world I now live in, I don’t see people dying. I see people going home. I see people graduating. I see people completing their missions. I old enough to remember when Cassius Clay […]
Day 346- The Wizard of Oz
This fucking sucks. Some days I can get through, here behind the curtain, pulling the levers, pushing the buttons giving the illusion of competence and control and some days I feel like Toto has run behind the curtain and exposed me. Today is one of the latter. I meet with my financial planner today. […]
Day 345- Birthday Dinner and Recurring Dream
My birthday was almost a week ago, but we have been so busy and with four parties this weekend it’s today when Tywana makes my birthday dinner. One of my favorite dishes is a recipe from Cooking Light many years ago. It’s called Mediterranean spaghetti. For some reason it’s only made on my birthday and […]