Day 371- fADC- Fail
Since Shayna’s passing, my interest in death and the afterlife has turned from primarily focused on NDEs (Near Death Experiences) to ADCs- After Death Communications. Since I have to live in this gap between when I saw her last and when I will see her again, I’m not so focused on where I’m going as to how I get from here to there. I have not been able to face the prospect of going years or decades with no contact with Shayna. ADCs give me some hope.
Most people who have had someone very close pass have experienced some form of After Death Communication. For spouses, it’s in the 60% range, for parents it’s even higher. These often take the form of events that can be dismissed by skeptics- coincidences/synchronistic events, finding coins, finding feathers, objects seeming to move by themselves- becoming lost then inexplicably being found, a familiar smell coming from nowhere. They can even go to apparitions, dream visits, hearing a loved one’s voice. These are spontaneous ADCs. Then, there is the field of induced or facilitated (or assisted) ADCs, where there are techniques where one attempts to make contact with a loved one on the other side. There are various techniques for this. I’ve decided to try one.
A friend of mine sent me an MP3 of the Facilitated After Death Communication he led. Basically, it’s a guided meditation where you sit or lie quietly, try to relax and he leads you through a dialog that is intended to increase your relaxation and take you to a state of consciousness where you can communicate with your loved one. I had a friend, right after Shayna passed, offer to connect me with her hypnotist to see if he could help me reach deeper states of consciousness. I never took him up on it, I think being scared of failure. You can’t fail if you don’t try. Mark sent this MP3 to me three weeks ago, and I’ve been putting it off because in the back of my mind I was afraid it wouldn’t work. I didn’t know exactly what to expect. Finally, today I decided to try it.
I sit down at my altar, take Shayna’s glasses from the altar, and place them in my lap as I sit in my meditation pose. I light my incense and candle, and I being playing the MP3. It’s about 40 minutes long. I’m going to give this the best chance I can. I follow the instructions to relax various body parts through tensing and releasing tension. Then I take the guided meditation, which takes me to a place in my mind where I’m supposed to be able to communicate with the person I want to communicate with. The meditation allows three four-minute spaces where this communication take place.
Here’s the issue for me. I’m too analytical. In these guided meditations, I know it’s all “just happening in my head”. I’ve heard that mediums must be able to let go and trust their “imagination” because the communication comes through your thoughts, just as your imagination works. So, the challenge is trusting the experience rather than analyzing it as it’s happening. I just can’t get out of my way. I made it through the 40-minute meditation. Did I have any contact with Shayna? I imagined some stuff, but I can’t trust it.
Now that I’ve been through the meditation once and have an idea of what to expect, I’ll probably try it again, or maybe I’ll just try it on my own and let myself be my guide.
During the meditation, the facilitator gives some caveats. Don’t expect too much. There may be good reasons why you don’t have contact. It might be on your end. It might be on your loved one’s end. It might be part of your plan to teach you patience and perseverance. All of this I accept. He does reassure me that when it’s my time to cross over, I will see her again. Yes, that I accept too. I’d just prefer not to wait. For now, that will have to do, though.
