Day 417- In My Dreams

I never thought I’d see the day when an REO Speedwagon song would bring me to tears.  But, it doesn’t take much these days.  I was on my walk/run this morning and this song came, In My Dreams, came up in my playlist.  It makes me cry every time I hear it now.

There was a time some time ago
When every sunrise meant a sunny day, oh a sunny day
But now when the morning light shines in
It only disturbs the dreamland where I lay, oh where I lay
I used to thank the lord when I’d wake
For life and love and the golden sky above me
But now I pray the stars will go on shinin’, you see in my dreams you love me
Daybreak is a joyful time
Just listen to the songbird harmonies, oh the harmonies
But I wish the dawn would never come
I wish there was silence in the trees, oh the trees
If only I could stay asleep, at least I could pretend you’re thinkin’ of me
‘Cause nighttime is the one time I am happy, you see in my dreams

As I was listening to it, I broke down and started crying.  The tears come when I feel things are going to be this way forever. That’s when despair sets in.  And the “rest of my life” does seem like forever. That’s the perspective I’ve always had.  Time began the moment I was born and will end the moment I die. So, anything that is the “rest of my life” is forever from inside this life.  When this happens I have to shift my perspective. I feel Shayna right there beside me. I can sense her hugging me and telling me “It won’t be forever.  It won’t even be that long.  Just hold on for a little longer.”  Meanwhile, I have my dreams.

I end my walk/run with a personal best time. And as I’m finishing up, Do You Feel What We Feel by Frampton comes on pumping me up for the rest of the day.