Time flies. Time has always been my enemy. First, it couldn’t go fast enough. Then I wanted to freeze it. Now, it can’t go fast enough again. They tell me time is an illusion. Damn, if it is, it’s the most powerful illusion ever.
School is starting up. Summer is over. Normally, I’m not a fan of fall, because fall portends winter. But, this fall isn’t bad. Today, Facebook shows me a memory of Shayna’s first day of high school. How can something that seems so long ago also seem like it was just a few days ago? How can so much have changed in just two years? People are posting pictures of their kids. First day of high school, first day of senior year, first day of college. I know all the feels. I’ve had them all. I’m happy for all of y’all. Enjoy these days. Enjoy each and every one of them. I know you want to freeze them to keep them with you. But, one by one, the days slip away. No matter what we do, we cannot escape the illusion of time.
I’m on the other side of that now. I don’t want to freeze time anymore. For me, the days can’t go by fast enough. I’m looking forward to a particular day like a child looks forward to Christmas, like a high school senior looks forward to graduation, like a bride looks forward to her wedding day. I don’t know how far off it is, but I do know it’s not forever and every day it’s one day closer. Every day between now and then is just a day to get through, a means to an end. At night when I close my eyes, a blessing is that sleep comes over me like turning off a light switch. But, before I go, I throw up a little prayer of gratitude to having ticked one more day off of the calendar, and that I have one day less to wait.