Today I start a course on raising my vibrational level in hopes of having more direct after death communications. It’s been a weird several days. We want signs from Shayna, but if what’s been happening lately are signs, we can hold off on the signs for a while. A few of weeks ago when we took Kayla back to school, I discovered a $1,700 problem with her car. The refrigerator suddenly stopped working just a couple of weeks after that. A light switch stopped working entirely, then started kinda working. I’ve had three hard drives crash including two on the same day. Two of those drives were backup drives, but one is the main drive on Tywana’s computer which now needs to be replaced. And, the ceiling fan in our bedroom keeps turning itself on and off including the light. A couple of nights ago as we were trying to fall asleep the light flashed on and off and the fan changed speeds. OK, Shayna, if you’re going to give us signs, please try not to make them destructive.
As I’m falling asleep I decide to try praying for a dream visit. Several people have recommended asking for dream visits, but I’m hesitant to ask. I’m not good at asking for things because I don’t want to be disappointed when I don’t receive. I ask for a visit and I fall asleep.
I wake up around 5:45 AM. I normally get up around 6:30-7:00. I’ve had the most amazing dream, but my first thought is a bit of a disappointment, but not surprise, that I did not have a dream visit from Shayna.
In my dream, I’m at a big family gathering in a house I don’t recognize. It’s a huge gathering full of adults, children, laughter, food, the whole nine yards. Even though I don’t recognize the home or most of the people, I feel safe and fully at Home. There is this little baby, an infant, no more than a few months old. She is a beautiful baby girl. I don’t even know her name. She can speak clearly though and she says she’s really, really sleepy and wants me to put her down for a nap. I take her tiny body and hold her close to me. I cradle her in my left arm. I wrap my right hand around her tiny head to support it, my thumb on one side and just three fingers on the other side. She looks up and me. I love the feeling of holding her, protecting her and knowing she is totally dependent on me. I feel like she is mine even though I don’t even know her name. I take her into the bedroom and there is a place made up on the bed to put her down for a nap. As I lay her down on the bed, she looks up at me and tells me she will see me when she wakes up. I leave the room so that she can sleep and join the rest of the party. Then I spot another little girl walking across the floor. She is so sleepy she can barely keep walking. Her body is that of a one year old, just about the age when they can start walking, but her face is that of an adult. She’s a beautiful girl, big round fat face. Her name is Dorene (I don’t know anyone named Dorene). She’s ready for a nap, too. I convince her to go lie down. I sit and enjoy the party until I finally wake up. I’ve got the most wonderful feeling. I would pay a million dollars to feel that feeling I had as I held that little girl. Being a Daddy was the best thing I’ve ever experienced in my life and even though it was just in a dream, I had that feeling for a few more moments.
As I wake up, my thought is the girl I put down for the nap is a metaphor for those who pass on before we do, they sleep while we’re awake, then they wake up to join us. But I quickly realize this thought is wrong. It’s not the “dead” who are asleep. It’s us. And they don’t “wake up” to rejoin us, we wake up to go be with them. Then, it hits me, that little girl I held and put down for a nap was Shayna. The disappointment of not having the dream visit I hoped for passes quickly.
6:20 rolls around. I might as well get up. I go into the bathroom to get dressed so I don’t disturb Tywana. As I come out of the room where the toilet is I notice the light in the bedroom is on. I didn’t turn it on. Why would Tywana have the light on so early? I look out and she’s asleep. I ask her why the light is on. She doesn’t know. She hadn’t turned it on.