Today is the Winter Solstice. The winter solstice marks the shortest day of the year in terms of sunlight. I always feel like I’m falling into a trough on the days leaving up to the winter solstice. The solstice for me, marks the bottom. And the great thing about hitting bottom is there is only one way to go- up. I am emotionally drained, I keep feeling for the bottom, but it’s not there yet. I hope it comes soon.
About a week ago I reached out to my angels and guides. I put out a 911 call. I was listening to a podcast that reiterated the law of attraction, positive thinking stuff that they tell me works. This person said that we don’t have to get positive. Just get to neutral. Stop expecting bad things to happen because if we expect bad things, the universe is going to deliver bad things. If we can just get to neutral, have a little faith (the faith of mustard seed came to mind), the universe will deliver. Ask, even with doubt, and wait for your guides, angels, universe, God, whatever to deliver. OK. That I can do. So I asked. Give me a sign in the next three days. it doesn’t have to be big. Just something unexpected. Something positive. It could be as little as finding a dollar bill on the ground. An unexpected check in the mail. An uptick in the business. I’ll take anything. I’m not picky. Today, on day 911 of my journey, I’m still waiting for that response.
Three days came and went. Four, five and six did also. And, so far- nothing. Patience I keep telling myself. Keep doing the right things. Keep putting things out there. Keep pressing on and things will turn. They have to turn. Two days ago I was discussing the seasons of business with my friend. We talked about the biblical story of Joseph where he told the Egyptians they would have 7 years of plenty, followed by 7 years of famine. They were to save up during those 7 years of plenty to have stores for when times were lean. This seems to be the way of life. A podcast for online entrepreneurs referred to the period of winter any business inevitably goes through. As we all know from Game of Thrones, winter isn’t just three months. Winter can last for years. It’s a good thing I took the lesson of Joseph to heart and stored up during those good years.
As I rolled out of bed this morning, I just felt done. I’m tired. I’m losing patience. But, I put on my gear and hit the road for my seven miles. A mile or so into the walk, I started to feel a bit better. I planned my day. “What can I do today to make a difference?” is the question I ask every morning, then I set out to do that thing. I go over my mental to do list.
I made it to the solstice. Winter will not and cannot last forever. I’m sitting here at my desk. Now, to get to that to do list and make it happen.
