Understanding the profound nature of consciousness and spirituality can often be a transformative journey. Mycailin Callahan’s journey through consciousness and spirituality is a testament to this transformation. In this podcast episode, Mycailin offers riveting insights into the power of consciousness, manifestation, and spiritual awakening, which she has gained from her Near-Death Experience (NDE) and her ongoing connection with her spiritual guide, Michael.
Mycailin’s early experiences with spiritual ecstasy and her NDE at the age of 20 have had a profound impact on her understanding of desire, consciousness, and manifestation. Her NDE revealed a deep understanding of her eternal being and the potential of conscious thought and action to change life. She speaks about a transformative experience where time seemed to slow down before a horse accident, illuminating her understanding of her eternal being. This incident triggered an awakening, leading her to overcome suicidal impulses and recover from a drug interaction.
One of the intriguing aspects of Mycailin journey is her exploration of deep spiritual concepts, including forgiveness, time and space, and the power of words. Mycailin perspective on ‘No World’ is fascinating. She shares how Michael showed her she is a creator of her own experience, highlighting the importance of the mindful use of words in creating one’s reality.
Mycailin also delves into the concept of manifestation and its relation to reincarnation. She shares stories of how she has seen things materialize, including her sister’s lost ring and her understanding of reincarnation. Mycailin experiences emphasize that the conscious use of words can lead to happiness and a transformative life experience.
In discussing changing the past and finding redemption, Mycailin shares how she helped her father overcome his traumatic past. She emphasizes the power of observation in reassigning significance to past events and understanding and relieving suffering in our world.
In exploring the purpose of NDEs and the role of helping others, Mycailin explains how conscious awareness can summon a beneficial outcome. She discusses suffering and how it can be redeemed, underlining the transformative potential of NDEs.
Mycailin Callahan’s journey provides a deeper understanding of spirituality, the power of consciousness, and the transformative potential of Near-Death Experiences. It is a story of overcoming personal challenges, embracing spiritual growth, and manifesting a new life. This episode serves as a testament to the transformative power of consciousness and spiritual awakening, making it a must-listen for anyone interested in exploring these topics.
Brian Smith 00:00
Hey everybody this is Brian back with another episode of grief to growth and today I’ve got with me Mycailin Callahan or Cal as her friends call her. She grew up as a mystic who commonly experienced ecstasy from the age of five. Under the guidance of her daemon, Michael was talking about what a demon or demon or daemon is. By the age of 15, she’d become an empiricist, she had set Michael aside as her childhood imaginary friends, friend, however, at the age of 20, she had an NDA II and she found Michael again, and what she calls the lustrous void. Or Michael gave her a life review. That was so redemptive, she had to return to tell everyone. So this was in 1978, though, and the world wasn’t ready for the message. So fast forward 45 years later, and she feels that the world is ready because Michael is brighter, so much through and brighter, so much, and restore her vigor, so that she at the age of 65, complete the mission, she rushed back for in 1978. So since then, after coming through a long Elmas, she’s written several books, we’re going to talk about some of her books, and she is going around telling people about her story, and about her experiences. So with that, I’m really excited to finally have Michael Limor. Michael Lane Callahan on grief to growth.
Mycailin Callahan 01:17
Great, yeah, I’m excited to be here as well. And Ryan,
Brian Smith 01:20
yeah, we’ve been Facebook friends for a while. And I’ve seen a couple of your interviews, and I’m really interested in sharing your story with everyone else. You talk about your guide, Michael, who you say you’ve been connected with, from a very early age. Tell me about that early connection through you’re in the E when you were near when you were 20.
Mycailin Callahan 01:40
Okay, um, well, that’s really critical to because now as I look back at 65, I can see the trajectory of the path the actual curriculum, Michael has happening all the time. And it’s really in concert with the theme of your show grief to growth. What he has been teaching me all along is to to become lucid, which is to find a particular way by Michael to become lucid in the dream of the world and realize that every time I think I’m suffering, or I’m frightened, or I’m angry, or I’m imagining myself, I’m loved, unseen. That it is a like a token or a cue to wake me up to the understanding that I have lost my lucidity in the dream of the world. And I have imagined myself as some sort of being who can suffer loss and die. Okay, let’s back up because we’re going to return to that. And that’s an ongoing theme, okay. As a child, there was a pedophile in my family, not my direct family. It was my grand uncle. And my father had a very bad temper, because he had been abused as a young boy. And so my mother regularly would take me and leave me at her mother’s house or at her aunt’s house. Her aunt was wonderful, never had any problems, their grandmother and grandfather on her side, wonderful, but they had an outboard motor business, and they worked on it sometimes even on the weekends and grandmother would leave me at her brother’s house, and her brother was a pedophile. Unbeknownst to them, apparently, I choose to believe she did not know. Um, I met Michael the first time in my psyche. And this is the first time the grief to growth theme comes up. I met him the first time when I was five years old. I was it was around Easter, and I was attempting to hide from Alfred, that was the pedophile. And I was wearing my Easter dress and Sunday shoes. And that was nothing to climb in. We were very poor family. And these were some of my best clothes and I didn’t want to ruin them. And I was always we were always made to be, you know, cognizant of our clothes last week destroy them because it was so expensive, particularly shoes. And I had on these little slick sold Sunday shoes and I knew I was never going to get up the tree that Michael suddenly came into my consciousness as this. And incredibly intelligent presence that you could feel and I could, he wasn’t speaking in words. He was speaking in concepts, and speaking with a forceful love, a love that was not deniable. His presence was palpable, and he directed me up this tree and I argued with him internally and said, I can’t get up those that tree with the shoes on I’ll break my shoes off. get a spanking. Like I said, don’t worry. Basically, I’ll show you where to put your hands and feet, go to the tree. And I went to the tree and like the handhold and the foot placings, were immediately obvious as they became necessary. And I was guided up this tree. And then my grand uncle passed by looking for me through thrashing. The shrubbery, which was a azalea hedges along the house looking for me, because I had often hidden there. And he had one wooden leg. So he was thrashing the shrubberies with his cane, pushing them aside, looking for me, but it wasn’t there. This time. It was a pie. There’s a funny thing about people, you know, they don’t look up that much. So a pie I learned to climb, and learn to climb as a way of hiding. I did a lot of hiding in my life. But when the the place where this comes up is, yes, I was repeatedly assaulted by this pedophile, but there were blessings in it. And the first blessing was that I found Michael. And because I found Michael in my psyche, and there was a connection established where I was anxious to hear from him once you felt this kind of love this ecstatic love descend over your psyche, you want more, and it raises the frisson. You know, the hair stands up all over your body and Chi spangles all over, you feel like ng angels are dancing all over your skin, or God has just kissed you on the head, you don’t know what has happened, but it’s so delicious. You just want to chase it, you want it more. And so this was a great blessing because as a five year old, to be tuned so deeply inward, at that age, where you’re looking and listening inward. Literally my life, I went through it, looking to provoke the rushes of that chi, the feeling of that presence descending on me. And so if I said, or I even thought, something, and that phenomenon occurred, I attended to it. It was like he was teaching me going Marco Polo Marco Polo, to find him and to do what summon the Chi. My father, having the bad temper that he did, because of his terrible past, he and I had a contest of wills for many years where I just kept loving him and forgiving him, even though he blistered my bone every day, okay, every day until I between the ages of three and 11. I got it some days twice. And he would always weep afterwards and say, I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry. You deserve a better father. I hit you in anger. I should never hit you in anger. I said terrible, scary things to you and anger. I should never speak to you that way. And so this incredible bond between Daddy and I grew and over time, dad became just sweeter and sweeter and sweeter. And he respected me more and more. Because I wouldn’t lie to him no matter what he questioned me on did you do so? And so knowing I was gonna get blistered, I would say, Yes, sir. I did. Okay, because I couldn’t lie. First of all, was a terrible liar. It showed all over my face. There was absolutely no point in even trying. And I knew I’d get it worse if I did lie to him, and he discerned it. And also because I did not want to offend Michael, I did not want to offend this loving presence, whom I initially thought was God. Okay, now technically, we’re all God. There’s nothing here. But God. Anyway. Um, so, over the years, I would climb into trees daily to try and get it to rain. I would sing to the sky in the summer, when it was too hot. We had no air conditioning. It was that long ago. Yes, sorry. And I would climb the trees in the afternoon and sing to the sky hoping that if I pleased God with my song, he would bless us with rain to cool things down so we could all see. So I went until I was about 15 years old doing this almost every day in the summer. And I thought it was me bringing the rain and well, God bringing it because of my songs. And then at the age of 15, I learned about a weather phenomenon called the Bermuda high. The Bermuda high is actually responsible for the rains coming every afternoon between four and six in the summertime and Florida had nothing to do with me. And this kind of shocked me into a reorientation All right All I considered at that point suddenly that’s magical thinking I set it aside. Okay? Michael is not real. That’s just something imaginary that I made up, because I had such a tormented childhood part of my greater self created this relationship. And this being this presents, apparently this is this was the thinking at the time. So from 15 to 20, I tried a lot of drugs. And I became an empiricist. And I became very focused in the physical I was always a very athletic child. And Rach because up until 15, I didn’t think anything was going to hurt me appeared to be made of rubber. Or I had somebody looking after me absorbing all the blows for me and up until 15, and learning about the Bermuda high I believed it was Michael. So then at the age of 20, I was out being rash riding horseback with a friend of mine, I’d forgotten. I was on a barrel mare named ticker, very gentle, 13 year old horse and I had forgotten to bring the feed for her and to lower the male stallion but I didn’t want to write because we didn’t have a good rapport we in the study, and he didn’t like me. But he liked my friend. So I was going to catch him for her. And as I’d forgotten the feed, I’m on ticker and I’m saying, you know, I bet I can maneuver him into the paddock chasing him on ticker because she’s so maneuverable. And then we’ll catch him in the little paddock. And so I spent about on ticker and we went after this stallion, and I was in a hard run, I’m not I’m not a full outrun a hard gallop, I would say, close behind this stallion very close. And he was a big horse, he was over 17 hands. And everything. I don’t know if your hands are four inches, four inches, so 17 times four at the height of his shoulder, big horse, okay, almost six feet at the shoulder. And everything slipped into slow motion. Now I’m like in jockey styles standing in the stirrups with my knees bent, you know, with a subtle hitting me in the bottom on every stride. And everything suddenly slips into slow motion. Now I’ve seen this by this time, many times in my life, things slip into slow motion whenever something bad is about to unfold for me. And generally I know with a few seconds lead what it’s to be all right. And Michael said to me, he’s kicking. Again, without words. There’s just an announced concept and announcing concept is kicking. And I said, You can’t get me up here. Where was I wrong? This is where he kicked me. Okay. He hit me in the face. I never felt the blow. I watched the hooves coming towards me in slow motion. And just before the impact I left, I rolled left out of my body. I had been one to by locate as a child very easily. I would be, for instance, laying in bed and looking at a window and suddenly I’m at the window looking out the window. But my body’s laying in bed. I can remember looking out the window wanting to go out in the yard and play and that the neighbor had a turkey and a coop behind my auntie’s house. And I’m standing at the window and suddenly, I’m standing over the bird in the cage. And of course, my body’s still back in the bed. So in this instance, here comes the hoof. I roll left out of my body. It’s not something I can do it will it happens or it doesn’t. There. I was about 150 feet away somewhere between 150 and I turned around and I looked back and I watched the horse striding watched the body let go of the rains, the head snapped back it fell backwards onto the roof of the horse and it bounced a few times as a horse kept striding. And I’m thinking gosh, I I hope the feet don’t get stuck in the stirrups. And they didn’t. The body went over the back of the rump of the horse landed on its head and then the shoulders and the hips and the legs hit and I was an illustrious, vast and I felt perfect. I felt so good. I said to myself nothing I’m perfect. Nothing can ever hurt me again. And suddenly boom. I’m aware of Michael. I feel His presence and I hear him more or less say to me, nothing could have ever hurt you to begin with. You’re in a eternal being. Okay, well, the interesting thing at this point is that I can taste not with my mouth but with my being the verity of what he’s saying. Truth has taste, or scent, like the scent of mashed potatoes is wedded to the mashed potatoes to the actual physical thing. So to truth has its own taste. Anyway. I knew right away he was telling the truth. And then I said, well, that being so why was it also scary? And he said, because you believed you could suffer loss and die. But that was necessary to because if you had not believed you could suffer loss and die, you would have never taken the experience seriously. There wouldn’t have been as much, so to speak, skin in the game. And you wouldn’t have learned what you went there to learn? Nor would have you done what you went there to do. And I said, Well, I don’t remember what I went there to do. Tell me what it is. And he said, you went to summon your will. And I said, summon my will you mean I went through all of that suffering? Just to learn or discern what I want? And he said, No, you misunderstand what I mean by the will. Okay, at this juncture, I became aware that there is individual desire. And then there’s the will that is wholly Okay. By holy, I mean, it is wholly shared by all creation, all Creation wills this together, we have just forgotten that we will it together. And that will is that the venue and every point of consciousness within it waken and remember its true nature as consciousness itself, because this puts us in our experience of our godly a state of being able to summon into what we call the real world. Okay? That which we desire, which is different from the will, okay, anything that is contrary to the will, that is holy, is just your personal desire, there’s nothing necessarily wrong with it. Except for that it keeps you from your full attainment, and it is perhaps limiting others in their attainment. And that full attainment is to your godly estate, so that the physics and he assures me this will happen, the physics of the venue will change, as we as humanity have perfected our benevolence, so that we can be trusted to wield our wills without hurting ourselves or each other. And he tells me, this is the number one thing that holds people back when all this attraction and all this, okay, trying to get things to manifest, etc. That’s all well and good. But if it’s, if you want it to actually happen, you have to perfect your benevolence. And what you are willing or wishing for, must be in concert with the will that is holy, because if it’s not, you are going to be in conflict with the designer of the venue itself. And so it’s going to be detrimental to the weakening of the venue and therefore detrimental to you. So we are kind of in a rubber room here, where the we pray things all the time, not knowing we’re praying them as we say them, you make me sick, I am sick to my death with your behavior. I am so fed up. These are things we say to ourselves which have repercussions in reality, as we call it. Okay. Jeff Thompson, I just watched your interview with him this morning, has ease, he’s really on to the truth that we speak into being many things, even if we’re not speaking them out loud, not realizing what we’re doing, and that we need to be more mindful of the energy we’re hurling out into space, because this is the purview of a conscious creator of an awakened creator of a lucid creator. So anyway, during this end D, the first thing he did when he said he had to show me was he sent me to back down into the dream of the world reliving a part of my life, where I was 18 months old, and mom was putting on me my first set of new shoes. And this was a big deal to mom. I lived this through mom’s perspective in mind as an 18 month old laying on the floor screaming because she thought she tied me to the ground. I didn’t understand why I had these stiff nasty things on my little dainty feet. Wanted to feel the earth, not the shoes. So So, mom, at the same time, had gone through a lot of trouble to set aside the money to get these shoes for me to protect my feet. So I saw on this being the child and feeling through my mother and watching all of us at the same time, it was very interesting. you relive it and you experience it from everyone’s point of view and watching it to the shoes had been given to protect my feet. And I by the labels I had assigned to the experience had made it the horrible situation that it was, to me, the horrible situation I experienced was entirely of my own creation. Suddenly, with this realization, I’m back with Michael and illustrious bass and then like, Did I get that right? Is that what you’re trying to show me? That is indeed what he was trying to show me. So if I had seen the blessing at that time for that tribulation, I’d have been able to turn the grief to growth, I’d have been able to turn the poison to an elixir. You can still do it in retrospect, you can do it years down the line by reassigning yourself lucidly consciously the significance that you give to an event. Once you find the blessing in it, you know, because it’s automatically the thing that lifts the burden of the grief from your heart, it happens automatically, you have found Boon sufficient to justify that suffering. So another venue had another vignette happened. And it was a struggling with Alfred, and fighting Alfred, and of knowing Michael’s presence with me, in that event, of feeling him of leaving my body over and over again, when this abuse happens. And I happened and I learned from that not only that I was accompanied. And then I had this, this incredible resource, Michael, His love is ever present love and His redemptive sight, he could look upon things and show me the blessings outside of time. I did not have to wait as far down the time stream. If I would listen to him. I wouldn’t have to do it as much in retrospect, it could happen. As it happened. I could understand or I could. And this is what I advise everybody is what I learned from this reserve judgment. Don’t label it at all. Wait and see. Wait and see how it rebounds. So the third back with Michael I went into the Lester’s VAs asked him Did I get this right? And I found the boom was you and that I learned that I wasn’t my body. I learned I began to learn I was not my body. Because whenever anyone would touch me, my dad spanking me out for abusing me. I would say to myself, he cannot touch me. He can touch my body. He cannot Sully me. He cannot even touch me. Right. So that is what I learned from that. And that is a beautiful boon to realize you’re not this for the next vent vignette, my dad was wearing a switch out on my legs. And the same thing happened again and again. I mean, it was not just one episode of dad hitting me with a switch. It was many that I relived as a sort of this sort of event, the sorts of events happened so many times, okay? But I realized each time I just left my body when it was happening. Again, I’m not my body. Okay, so I had found this escape hatch. out I’d go. So, from these, I learned that everything that happens to us is actually happening for us. People say, Why is there so much suffering? Well, your memory is not being wiped. Before you get here, there is no river life. I take that directly from Michael. And there’s no river of forgetfulness. The reason you don’t remember is very simple. The human brain when you’re born takes almost 30 years to mature. And during that 30 years your brain which is a mechanistic chemically working thing, orient you to live in this venue. It orient you to believe your body to believe your your family to believe your pet to believe your your house, your neighborhood, your friends, okay? All of the things that are important to the body survival, but nobody wants you to forget. They want you to wake up. They want you to remember that’s why there’s so much suffering every time If you suffer, it’s an opportunity to wake up. In fact, it should be like a token to you saying, wake up, wake up. You’ve lost your lucidity, you think you’re something that can suffer loss and die. But there’s something in this for you, because you’re an eternal Divine Being who came here to wake in the whole world, to the fact that they’re dreaming now, dying was exactly like awakening from a dispiriting dream. You know, you wake up from a bad dream, you think, oh my god, I’m so glad I don’t. My Existence comes from a higher level. And nothing in that dream can actually hurt me. That’s exactly what it was like, when I died. It was holy smoke. At this point, I’m going nothing in the dream of the world could have ever hurt me at all. That is amazing. Okay. And everything that hurt me hurt me because of the labels. I assigned. Everything I suffered, I suffered because I made it with my labels. The situation that it was for me, other people were having a completely different experience. Shazam. Mom was putting shoes on my feet cuz she loved me. Okay, so, at this point, I’m laughing. I’m laughing because people do this to ourselves constantly. Michael and I are just roaring with laughter at the way we pray play this prank on ourselves. Is this a prank? It’s very funny from outside of the prank. When you get into your eternal perspective, you’re going to go that was hysterical. I can’t believe I did that to myself. Right? Because from there, it’s funny. But from within the venue nuts. That’s so funny. But it’s supposed to wake you up. Okay, now, because I was going through all this stuff. As a child. I had bad nightmares every night. I didn’t want to go to sleep. Michael started coming into my nightmares and making me lucid in the dream. Why are you running? I’d be running for monsters. Why are you running? Because a monsters are gonna get me they’re chasing me. And he would say no, they’re not chasing you. They’re coming out to greet you. You make those monsters you summon them into being they’re coming out. They’re coming to you to show you that you’re the power that created them. They’re trying to show you where the power is. Now, this never really sunk into my awareness into my being until over time many times like in in the near death experience. I became lucid looking back on the world saying it’s just a dream. This is lucidity, I became aware of my own creative ability that I had been doing unconsciously before, by labeling situations in such a way that they were painful to me. Instead of not judging or labeling it in the way I chose to see it consciously. Jeff Thompson was saying he’s in the space between the judgments. He is the space between the judgments, he isn’t in it. She is that space. And that’s the next level, you move to realizing you are that consciousness itself in which all of this is unfolding. The way out is in and you’re the portal. Okay? So we laughed and we laughed about what an incredible joke we’re playing on ourselves. Because we’re God Ling’s making ourselves miserable or making ourselves happy. By the way, we wield our wills to label situations. And then we wept. And we wept, because it’s a tragedy that people wield their godly estate unconsciously, and make themselves miserable. This was the source of all of the suffering in the world, it could all be stopped. If people just learn to become lucid in the dream of the world, and consciously supervise their mind, instead of letting their mind impersonate them with a whole bunch of scary thoughts that get triggered in situations that remind you of some bad thing that happened before. And letting those scary thoughts full of energy and passion because they’re born of some sort of trauma. Run away with you in the present moment. The only way anything from your past gets into your future is through now. Your present moment. So you have to choose to supervise your mind. And Michael in my last really big revelation with him in 2007 said to me, remember I taught you to be lucid as a child and your nightmares. Remember, I taught you about lucidity when you died. Now I’m telling you You anytime you imagine yourself some suffering sad caned being, you have forgotten what you are, you have descended into identification with a character you’re playing in a temporal dream. And when you leave here you’re going to remember you are not that being you are this consciousness, you are in consciousness. Okay? itself you are awareness. So now he says to me, anything that upsets you, you need to remember it, you need to use it as the thing that makes you lucid. Ah, I’m in pain, emotional pain, what am I say? What is my mind saying to myself that is generating this pain. Okay, because usually your mind is lying to your mind is telling you some past situation that was dangerous, sad, hurtful, whatever injurious is back, it’s back, it’s happening again. And it’s usually not, you’re having an irrational response to a present situation, because of a past event that has been triggered and is now impersonating you, you the consciousness, using the energy of your godliest state to create an experience you don’t want. And that’s the way it actually factually works. And once you discover that you’re the one doing it to yourself, with the labels you apply, you become the space between in which all of this unfolds, and cannot really hurt you. So with this, I said to him, My God, this is also clear, it’s also perfect and beautiful. The suffering wakes us to remember our true identity, we stopped being programmed by our brains maturation process, to identify with all the stuff we are not. And realizing this, I thought I have to go back. I have to go back, Michael, how do I go back? I have to tell everybody, how do I go back and he said, Well, you can go back anywhere you want. Now, this took me years to realize how critical what he said next was he said, you can go back anyplace you want, you can go back into the moment before the accident occurred and avoid the accident altogether. And live your time stream having never had this accident. But if you go back that way, you will not recall what I just showed you. And you only want to go back to tell everybody this so that they too can be free. So in order to go back and keep these memories as part of that time stream, you must go back through the last moment. And riaan habit, the damaged body as it as it is in that time stream. That way you’ll keep the memories. So I said well, how do I do it? He said remember the last moment you were in your body. And that was easy was the rump coming up in the air and him saying he’s kicking and then summon your will to return. Okay, this is what he said I came here to do to summon my will and He meant the wheel that is holy. And the well that is holy is the manifestation of the Golden timeline where the venue itself and every point of consciousness within it wakens to be unconscious to being lucid. All right, so I did exactly what he directed. I remembered the last moment, I will passionately to go back because I was full of love for everybody in the venue. But especially for the 1000s of people that I saw. Were like me coming into the venue and having nd ease to give it a reorientation to refresh their memory of who and what we all really are, so that they could bring that memory back and jostle everybody else and say Hey, wake up, wake up. We’re doing this to ourselves, and we’re doing it together. Okay, and we can wake up together. So bam, I was back in the dream of the world felt like the rushing of a win for me, and they’re back in my body trying to make it stand up. That’s my N D, the messages of that MDM 65 now have matured over time. It’s like he planted like he did. First of all, it’s like he took my old belief system. Your belief system limits your perceptions. Your belief system limits your ability to grow in many ways, okay. And what he did was shatter the edges of my empiricist mind okay, took it apart so that he could rearrange the connections between the dots of my own reckonings. Okay. And give me a broader expat more expansive view over time. And over the years, he’s prepared my mind to be able to accept larger and larger chunks of understanding of the way this works. And what the purpose of my still being here is because after you’ve had experiences like that, the world’s pretty mundane and you keep saying, Okay, what am I going to do the thing I came back here to do, because I’m ready to get out when you’re ready to let me out, okay? I walk in, like I walk outside and electrical storms, Elon Musk scared me more. If he wants me, he can have me. And I don’t think he wants to take me out because as he says, You’re lucid now. Only a lucid dreamer can change the dream. We want you to stay in the dream.
Brian Smith 35:55
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Mycailin Callahan 36:23
Okay, we’ve prepared you all this time. Now we need you to stay in the dream. So, um, that’s kind of where I am now. But I will say I’ll add on the thing that has most matured my settlement in awareness of what I am, was last year I took myself off Lexapro, which is an SSRI under doctor’s supervision, okay. Lexapro was not playing pretty with my other medications, and it nearly killed me a few times. And I was drug interactions. And I was in hell. Figuratively speaking, but very real. Hell, because the suicidal impulse was chronic. I’m not talking about ideation, I’m talking about impulse. I took myself almost completely off my pain medication at the same time because the pain medication was mixing with Alexa protocols. serotonin syndrome, which is what nearly killed me over and over again. Until finally we died. I figured if Michael told me what it was, I looked it up I called the doctor and sure enough, they said yeah, that’s what it’s been all this time. Isn’t that interesting? Anyway, um, the nerve endings throughout your body scream, you feel like you’ve got the flu. Everything hurts way worse than it should. Constant suicidal impulse it feels like it felt to me like I was being stabbed all over with tiny little stainless steel cocktail knives, the swords, you know, the little cocktail swords. That, okay, that’s what it felt like tickets to all over my muscles. So not only was I sick, it felt like the flu. And in a lot of physical pain, and less nerve pain, the stabbing sort feeling. But the suicidal impulse was constant, constant. And just like your brain says, roll over in bed, because you’re uncomfortable or eat even for your stomach growls as Brian said, Eat. My brain was saying make it stop, kill the body. Make it stop kill the body, you know, because it was that physically intolerable. And so what? Every worse yet every bad psychological bundle of frightened, angry self talk I had ever constructed anywhere in my mind space, came alive and started playing constant dread. Every second, I believed I was going to drop dead and just going to drop dead if I don’t kill myself, right? It was just, it was 11 months of this and not sleeping for days on end. And the only way I could escape this was I would go in and lay down. And I would I would create I created a metaphor. There was a place I had been in my life. Not a torium locker room, where I learned to scuba dive where I had felt Michael intensely present in my late 20s. And every time I went in there I had this really strong feeling of presence. And so I and I had met Michael in dreams when I started shortly after I started right it he came to me in dreams in the context of that locker room is where it was sited. And so in order to be closer to him, I would go into this locker room metaphor. I would visualize it really intensely. Michael calls this Imagine festing because you’re hearing it, you’re seeing it, you’re smelling the chlorine from the pool above you hear the pumps, chanting. The pool pumps chanting distantly, you know the water is dripping in the showers drip drip through the air, the air is very moist. And so there’s this haziness, you imagine fest it and then I decided at the top of the stairs where the natatorium used to be, I was going to create another world and knock off of this one that was a little bit better weather wise. And I would go up the stairs, manifesting the light streaming in around the doors, throw the doors open, walk out onto this beautiful sandy beach that I imagine tested many times very, very vividly. Okay, because the mind is like a teething puppy. It needs something to chew on. Right? So when the mind is rebelling so badly that it just won’t quit, you can forcibly put it on to something precious and beautiful instead. And so you put yourself into that. So I learned to do this over and over again. And I’m now I’ve just learned to supervise my mind so much so that I have as I mentioned, I’m not in the space between the judgments. I am the space in which it all unfolds. I am unbothered by most things anymore. And if I am bothered, I stop and I say, What silly story? Am I telling myself? Okay, because none of this can touch me. Unless I give it power to touch me. All of your frightening pain thoughts, get all of their power to affect your experience from you. And yet all of us believe we are victims of our emotions. And the emotions are the result of your self talk. Whatever you’re feeling, it’s something you’re saying to yourself. So, this is where I am now I have to say that the boon I got from Lexapro withdrawals was I am like, the first I went to the observer mode, observe the mind observe it creating your experience, observe it creating the emotions. But after a while, the observer sufficiently fed the chooser. And the chooser began to direct the mind and choose the narrative it preferred. So this is where I am now. And if you can get your self into chooser mode, if you can just be observer, you’ll eventually wake in the chooser, the chooser. Once you’ve observed long enough, you’re sabotaging your own peace and happiness. Once you observe your mind attacking your peace and happiness, you realize it can’t attack your peace and happiness. If it were you. It’s not you. It’s your tool. This kind of snaps you into chooser mode, that realization. It’s like an aha, I found the switch that activates this, the way I want it to work. And you’re the switch is your will. It’s your attention. It’s where you put your focus. Last metaphor, if your mind is like a dark space. And over in this corner of the room, you’ve got all your hopes and desires and fondest memories. And over in this corner of the room, you’ve got all your fears, your losses, your disappointments, but you are the one with a flashlight. And that flashlight is your attention. supervisor might cast the light of your attention where you want things to grow. Because you’re the light that makes them grow. So there we are.
Brian Smith 44:28
Absolutely. Thank you so much. Thank you so much. There’s so much I want to talk to you about. First of all I want to there’s there’s a word that you used earlier and I’ve heard you use in other interviews and it confused me at first so I’m going to clarify it for people that are listening to might be because you use the word chi or Chi and Chi Chi. So tell people what chi is I know now I didn’t know when I first heard it
Mycailin Callahan 44:58
as a scientist is difficult For me to use words and precisely so, I have to say as a scientist, I cannot tell you what she is. As a mystic, I can tell you she is love. Okay? There is nothing here but God. Nothing. But God. Everything here is made of God by God from God. Okay, there is no evil. It’s just different players in this prank. provoking you provoking us all shaking us up unconscious that they’re being used by higher power to do that job. Everybody’s just doing their job. If there’s the devil, he’s just doing his job. Okay, his job is to test you to push you. If there’s a devil, it’s probably you. Okay, she is experienced by me, I can be precisely correct about that ensure that I’m saying something precisely correct. She is experienced by me in a variety of ways. It feels like light dazzling all over my body or angels dancing on your skin. It feels euphoric. It feels like love. It feels like a love that has nothing to do with the love that we call love. Here it is much more encompassing. If there were a word for what closely resembles it, I would say it’s compassion, that sort of love. It is a love that includes everybody and everything. Even your worst enemy, do you know who I really look forward to celebrating with in the eternal is Alfred, the abuser, okay, because we’re going to laugh at how we played this game with one another. And he loving me volunteered to be hated by me. Until the time I was able to forgive him in order to give me an experience of Michael at such a young age, to push me so desperately in deeply that I found Michael, in my own consciousness that he was eternally available. This is like somebody’s offering to be hated by you. Because they’re going to do something to you. That’s for your own good, but you’re going to really hate it while it’s happening. Okay, so I look forward to celebrating with Alfred and having a good laugh. Okay.
Brian Smith 47:49
That’s, that’s a very deep concept. I know people are gonna have to have to chew on though wrestle with that. Yeah, people will wrestle with that. And as I’ve heard you speak before, and even as I heard you, this time telling your story. Your love for your father just comes through, like, incredibly. And you say that he beat you every day from the time you were three to the age of 11. And then every day he would apologize for how did you forgive him at the time was later when you forgave him, because it sounds right there at the time,
Mycailin Callahan 48:26
every time because I could feel his pain. And there was no relief from me, for me from his from my suffering until he was free to it’s the same thing with Alfred. For many years, I endeavored to totally be free of any signs of any of the damage he did to me to take away his effects to nullify his error. Because I wanted him to be free. I didn’t want to be tied to that electromagnetic frequency of suffering, I wanted instead to redeem it, to find the elixir in the poison to find the pearl hidden in the muck. If I could find the pearl hidden in the muck, I could redeem anything. And we’re the Redeemer. We choose to condemn or we choose to, to free. It’s not really forgiveness is freeing. You’re freeing yourself from the burden of that negative energy. You’re freeing the other person because how can you be happy in heaven? Knowing that person is excluded and suffering in their own created hell? How can compassion won’t let you do it? The love that comes to you from that perspective demands you find a way to free the one who freed you through making you suffer. They made you suffer and you became free. Because of that suffering you just identified from anything that could suffer and you want to give it to them. It’s the natural response to say, well, he’s dead now. So how can I do it, I will destroy any sign of damage in me and totally transform what he did out of being misguided, and suffering himself, no doubt, I will transform it to something beautiful to bring back to my maker to say, this is what I made with a tragedy you gave me I did this, okay. This is my magic.
Brian Smith 50:36
But it’s beautiful, thank you, and use the word, then you and you talk about life being kind of like a dream. And I was I think of the matrix. I think the matrix was a fantastic movie and so many levels. So, so what is your interpretation of the world? Because I think I’ve started to say, there’s no world out there at some point. And I have heard this concept over and over again, I’ve been reading Tom Campbell lately, and I just read biocentrism and I, the I’m reading all these people that are saying that say there’s no world out there. So what do you mean when you say that?
Mycailin Callahan 51:14
Now mind you, Michael started telling me this. The other thing that Michael did was he created a by blowing apart my belief structure at the edges so he could integrate new ideas in chronically, he also sort of opened a hole in my mind that a conduit between us where we could meet and I could understand things, I hear things from him, even that didn’t yet make sense. And one of them was about four or five years ago, he started saying, there’s no world out there, everything will start to make sense to you, once you get your orientation, you’re not oriented, the orientation is this, there’s no world out there. Because there is no out. There is no out consciousness exist. Not in a spacious way. Everything is happening inside consciousness. So there’s no world there’s no out. So there’s no world out there. Everything is happening in consciousness, but we have these meat suits that we put on in order to interact in this venue and to trick us into thinking we are the meatsuit because it can suffer loss and die and it can hurt. So the objective is to reorient us with our suffering. And that orientation is you are actually creating your experience. It’s happening in a at the level of consciousness itself, it’s not happening to us thrust upon you in some outwardly real projected venue that is all being filtered projected through your eyes and your expectations and this apparatus to give you an experience of spatial existence, it is a simulated, he tells me time can exist without space. Okay, now this these are images he’s been working with me on for a couple of years. Time is change. Without change, there is no time. So as soon as you introduce a thought, you have introduced change. And time has begun. I kind of think the first thought was a thought of spatial speciality. Okay, if you if you realize that everything that happens in your life, the last moment contains everything that happened before every parameter is in the last moment like nested in a Russian dolls, the last moment implies every antecedent condition, okay of the whole thing. So if you take in the lustrous VAs everything exists simultaneously possible. Okay, some things are more easily possible than others more likely than others. But all things are possible and exist as hypothetical realities, hypothetical realities that you then experience as if you would be reading a book or watching a movie. You go into that moment containing every antecedent moment, every antecedent condition, you go into that moment and a spatial environment expands around you. Okay? It’s all hypothetical. That’s why you can go into the lustrous vast and go into a life review and relive it And yet, that’s why he said to me, you can go back at any moment you want and live it differently, you can even avoid the accident. But you won’t remember what I just showed you. And you’ll have to wake up again with some other incident because you won’t be able to carry the A wakefulness is the knowledge that you are the conscious knowledge that you have previously been unconsciously constructing your own reality. And doing so through your fears. Instead of through your love and your joy and what you aspire to. Okay, so that’s what I mean by there is no world out there. There is no doubt. God created all of this by recombinant recombining various traits, trait packages to create dreams of us individual little beings, your trade package, my trade package, my history, your history, what we’ve gone through to bring us to this moment, okay. And we as gods are capable inside our own consciousnesses to create worlds and I’m a writer, I create worlds and characters, okay, I’m only come recently to realize it, they have their own reality. And mine space is contiguous, there are no separations, you can get into the locker room metaphor. Anybody can get in there. All right, because mine space is contiguous, there are no separations. But we explode. Everybody’s looking for the added added dimensions that we can’t see. Dimensions. There’s all these dimensions, physicists say, well, they’re looking in the wrong place. They’re inside our consciousness, the dimensions explode inwardly, as God expands through each of us creating more and more venues of interaction of experience. So I know that’s quite a rambling answer. And it’s a lot of stuff. It’s really dense. I hope that people can pick it up somewhere and lead them someplace fruitful.
Brian Smith 57:11
Yeah, there, there is a lot. And again, it’s a concept that I keep coming across. And I need to hear different ways from different people. So I wanted to say to people, if you’re struggling to understand this, your normal, it’s like when you first started hearing about quantum physics, you know, someone said, If you think you understand quantum physics, you don’t understand quantum physics. The idea that time and space are relative, you know, it’s a concept that we it goes against what our senses tell us, it goes against what our meatsuit is telling us that people say, well, I might my experience is there is time, and there is space. But so we have to just kind of
Mycailin Callahan 57:48
experience. Yeah, experience, experience changes from moment to moment from person to person, from label to label. So why would we count it to be so important? It’s direct experiences the measure of reality. Oh, Poppy, yeah. Okay.
Brian Smith 58:09
Yeah, all you have to do is look at a few optical illusions, to understand that our experiences and what’s necessarily true and understand the way the way that our brains work, and what our brains filter out, you know, perception is not what we perceive it to be. It’s subjective. We all have different experiences, you know, even if we’re in the same place having the same event happen around us. So these concepts actually go back to what we actually understood before the modern era. I mean, really, it’s only about 120 years ago that we really got lost with with understanding the way the universe works. And I believe that the things that Michael is showing you is what the mystics have told us for for 1000s of years.
Mycailin Callahan 58:51
Yes, I am obviously a mystic. I mean, I used to, I’m a little kid who used to go climb up into the trees in order to commune with God and get she rushes through my body and, and sing to the sky. I didn’t realize I was a mystic for many years, except for Well, it took until I was about 1112 years old realize every time I tried to talk to other people about this subtle experience that I was having that was so compelling. They were like, they had no clue what I was on about. And so I for many years, I just stopped talking about Michael, and stop, stop. Particularly after the near death experience when I started trying to tell people right away, when I got back, like right away, I started telling my family because I wanted to wake all of them up right away, you know, right? We’re all like, it’s just brain damage. You’ll be alright, it’ll go away, you will recover. That was their reaction.
Brian Smith 59:44
I want to talk about the word mystic though because I’m a scientist also, I’m a chemical engineer. And I think the word mystic. It makes us think okay, these these are people that are studying things that aren’t real, they’re not this, but I think that is actually the ultimate reality. So why I just appreciate I just read Tom Campbell’s book Theory of Everything. The guy’s he’s a physicist, but he also studied at the Monroe Institute and has had all these out of body experiences. So we call it mysticism because our instruments can’t measure it. But I believe it’s the actual ultimate reality. So when we do turn within, and we do start to understand these concepts, it’s not woowoo. It’s not wishful thinking. It is actually why we are here. And it makes sense. And I’m glad to see people like you, who are putting such thoughtful words behind it and who are explaining it that way. And Bernardo kastrup is a guy that I’ve read, like everything he’s ever written, he’s a, he’s a computer scientist, and a PhD in philosophy. And he writes about, he brings the science and the philosophy together, which is where I think where the ultimate truth comes. So what you’re saying to me, thanks, makes perfect sense. And I want to I do want to talk about the idea of manifestation also, because I, it’s one of those things. It’s kind of like reincarnation, I believe it’s real, but it’s not the way most people think it is. Because we hear manifestation we think, okay, that means if I just believe hard enough, I can be a millionaire. I’ll never get sick, and I can drive a nice car. But I hear you talking about manifestation more of like, the will capital W. And being in that bowl. So could you explain a little bit more?
Mycailin Callahan 1:01:30
Okay. The ultimate thing that we all want to be as happy. Yes, we are all praying to be happy, consciously and unconsciously, all the time. We, at the same time, shoot all our prayers in the foot by negating them with the words we choose to utter those prayers, or with which words that we choose that counteract those prayers. You I’m having a hard time little seizure. I have those from the brain damage. Yeah. Ah, but it’s I’m blessedly really it’s not bad. That your time I just lose my train of thought for a moment. And I feel a little unwell and I flush it that’s why I’m disabled. This okay, we all want to be happy. We’re always praying to be happy. But then we’re saying things to ourselves that counteract our own will. We’re not even paying attention to the words we’re uttering in 2008. Michael said to me, and this is one of the few times that he came very close to using words he said, If you want your words, to have power, you must first call from your speech and your thoughts. All the words you would not will to empower the venue is designed to protect you from your rash utterances. We’re children of God, we are God’s feelings. We have massive power. Have you ever watched a baby elephant learn to use its trunk? Okay, it’s all over the place. They smack themselves in the eyes and ears trying to use the thing. Same thing with our godly estate. Same thing with our desire, our passion, summons to us the safest version of what we are emotionally spiritually prepared to have the safest version that will do us the least harm. And as long as we are rationally uttering things and doing it unconsciously. The venue is not going to change the physics at a quantum level to deliver to you. Anything that is dangerous to you or someone else. I like if if I learn how to wield the will in this venue and do things that other people can’t do. It’s like handing the neighborhood bully. Do you hand him a plastic baseball bat? He’s gonna smack the other kids with it. No, the venue’s gonna hand you a nerf bat. A nerf bat won’t hurt anybody. Okay, as a metaphor. The more perfected your benevolence. The more you’re living in your compassion. The more the venue, the more you’re in Not uttering words, rationally, you’re being conscious about what you will and what you say and what you try to manifest with your labels. The more you’re doing that consciously, the more the venue, the power comes to you because it’s safe. You’re not going to hurt anybody with it. I mean, I start noticing I have literally materialized to things not before my very eyes. I don’t know why I’m not allowed to see it happen. But I have said, I want this thing and I need this thing. And I went away to look for it elsewhere. And I was very passionate about it. This is a very important situation, at the time, to me emotionally very important, walked away to go look for the things I needed elsewhere searched all the places it should be in the house, came back out to where I was working outside, and there were the supplies I needed. Next to next to my tools. All right, they had not been there. Okay, they had not been there. In fact, there was a gentleman working there with me and I asked him read, where did these nails come from? Okay. I went inside and searched all the vessels where I keep nails and bolts and nuts. And suddenly there were these words here. They’re laying right here next to my hammer. Exactly. Four nails that I need to finish this job so that I can put my peacocks that are coming into that coop. All right. And he was like, I haven’t been down off the roof. I’m working up here and I haven’t been done on it or might have. I’ve seen this happen more than once. It’s happened quite a few times. And I think the reason it happens, and I find things I’ve not long ago, I went to my sister’s house, she came to the door she was weeping. I was like What’s the matter? Chrissy and she was I have lost mom’s ring. You know, the dome ring with the diamonds that I gave. I’ve lost it. I can’t find it. I’ve been looking all day. And I said okay, well. Take me inside where you last saw it or take me take me where you think it should be? Right. And she’s what I’ve searched, which takes me to her bedroom and she’ll have searched all over every place. Um, she’s standing right there next to her bed. I’m standing in the doorway, and I say inwardly to Michael, Michael, please show me the ring. And my head literally turns me of its own accord and my eyes landed on the ring. It’s like three feet from her where she’s standing in that very moment, laying in the middle of the pillow where she lays her head on that bed. I’m like 14 feet away. And Michael goes with my head and lands right on that ring on it. She’s standing there and she can’t see it. Did I materialize that right? Did Michael materialize that ring? I mean, did she just suddenly become able to see it? I don’t know how these things happen. But I can tell you I have seen things that I knew where they were supposed to be disappear from where they were supposed to be. And I have said to Michael Please give it back. And I looked again. And there was okay. He’s given me an experience over and over again. That this venue is not what it appears to be. And things can come and go from it. Okay, I had a dog I lost her four days. Four days. I looked for this dog in June. I found her four days she had been locked in my van in June or Wow. In Florida. Wow. And she was fine. Wow. Okay, I found her after days of looking for her and hearing her barking and thinking I was losing my mind. I came from because I’m hearing her I’m thinking I’m so tortured by what’s happened to Gracie. Right? And I came in to address having been 30 miles away leaving flyers with the you know, the people at the agricultural stations, etc. I, you know came in from that and I’m undressing and I think I hear Gracie barking again. It’s raining. Her son Ottoman is in the back porch. It’s because it’s raining, storming hard. I think I hear barking again. I start to weep because I think okay, this is driving me crazy, so much guilt over this dog and where she’s gone. Right? And not one barks Atman and I hear in his bark. No, it’s real. That’s really Gracie. She really is nearby. You’re not imagining that. And I go out onto the front porch and I say, Michael, show her to me. And my head goes me onto the van and I go, Oh my god, four days in June, and she was fine. And she hadn’t done anything untoward in the van. Miracle you know, so There are things that you think can’t happen. The dog cannot survive being locked in a van with the windows closed for four days in June, right with no water and no food. Right? And she did.
Brian Smith 1:10:11
Yeah, it’s you’re right. It’s one of those things that like, you can’t explain it, you know, other than maybe she she wasn’t there for four days. And when you you manifested her back because again, I’m bringing everybody superposition, right. You talked earlier about everything exists in potential until it’s observed.
Mycailin Callahan 1:10:29
Exactly. I am such a fan of Schrodinger. Recently, my sister again had misplaced this ring, huh. This was my dad’s ring. And so is this. Okay. She had misplaced this ring, and an earlier version of it that had been dad’s, she thought someone had stolen. She looked everywhere, everywhere, everywhere. For these rings, there are more rings missing, too. She said to me, I’ve looked everywhere, there’s only one place where I can think it could be it might be in the strong box located dot dot dot fill in wherever I put it there because no one will think to look there. It could be but I haven’t looked there yet. Because it’s such an unlikely place for me to put it because I would put it in my ring collection in my jewelry box. So I could get to it to wear it. Okay, why would I put this ring that I want to wear in such a difficult place to get to? And I said now okay, look, she said I don’t think is there so so don’t go look now, because you just said I don’t think it’s there. So what I want you to say is I don’t want to hear it. It might be there. It might be there. Yeah, say it. She said it might be there. I said you know what? I think it is there. What do you think? She said? I think it is there? It’s there, isn’t it? It’s Schrodinger strong box, that ring exists in that strong box until you say it doesn’t go in there and observe it to not be there. So say it is there and look again in a couple of weeks. Yeah, that’s where it was.
Brian Smith 1:12:04
Strong back soon. Yeah, well, you know, again, I’m so I’m saying you go back a couple 100 years. And they were they were really on to a lot. You know, shorting your Einstein, Bohr, Heisenberg, all those people that said that the universe is not the way we expect it to be that it is. It’s doesn’t exist until it’s observed. And it’s actually the observation that creates the the event the stuff that’s around us, and in which case, if it is all consciousness, then it’s not set in stone, as we will we think it is.
Mycailin Callahan 1:12:44
A label is the observation. Right? Right label is the observation. So when you when you crown the event with your label as the godling that you are you have made it appear to be set in stone. Right, you put it in that timeline?
Brian Smith 1:13:00
Yeah, well, let’s talk about timelines. Also, because I heard you say something was very close to maybe we’re saying this, because there’s another concept I’ve ever come across is that we can change the past. Through our through our observation, you talked about, you know, look, looking at this event and kind of redeeming it or, in a way almost even changing it.
Mycailin Callahan 1:13:20
Yeah, it reassigned the significance. You just decided it meant something different than what you originally called it. But it has to obviously be something that resonates with you, and which redeems the event for you so that you see a boon in it. That sufficient, okay, like, for me, the boon sufficient to redeem Alford’s error is that I found Michael, okay, the boon sufficient to redeem my daddy spank in my butt. Well, there are two. One is I learned I was not my body. And eventually it changed dad, you know, you can’t, you can’t take an innocent person or child and, and have compassion in your heart at all to be lucid at all at any level, and, and torment that person over and over again, and then continue to love you and continue to extend forgiveness over and over again, without it eventually being like hot coals on your head. You have to change. You have to do something to get a grip on yourself and for dad, his past trauma had been like taking over his mindspace and his behavior so that he spanked me and said things that were inappropriate to me. And at the age of just a few years before he died, and I hadn’t seen him in a couple of years. He looked at me and he said, I can’t believe I beat your butt all those years trying to make you do what you would have glad done for me, for the sake of love alone, had I just asked. I was trying to make you do things to be obedient to me. You want it? The last time he spanked me. I asked him I was like 10 and a half 11. I looked up at him and as he as he was hitting me, and I said, How will you ever know? I’m doing what I’m doing. Because I love you and want to please you, if you think I’m doing it, because I’m scared. How will you ever know? How can I show you that when I’m good? I’m doing it because I love you. Wow. He was dumbstruck, he was just like, stopped him. He dropped the switch, he dropped to his knees, he hugged me. I mean, I’m just a little thing. You know, I’ve always been short, I was even 11 he hooked me. And I could tell he was fighting back tears. And he said to me cracking boys give me back my pocket knife on me. He’d given me his pocket knife to cut the switch. He used to spec me, you’re never going to need it again.
Brian Smith 1:16:14
That’s powerful, and so many ways. And you learned through that you learned compassion for your father, you somehow saw through the pain that he was inflicting on you, and you saw the pain that he was going through and you recognize that. But as you’re saying that it reminded me so much of so many people’s image of God, that God wants to bend us to his will by by beating us by and making us admit. And you said something very powerful, though. How would God ever know we loved him? If we only obeyed him at a because we fear that?
Mycailin Callahan 1:16:49
That’s right. And God doesn’t want to beat us into submission. God wants us to come to him out of love. God wants us to come to him out of love and to come to our brothers and sisters in love. To try and relieve them from their suffering. And living in fear of God is absolute. I see somebody say I’m a God fearing person, I think, Oh, well. You’re not we’re not for each other. Because I’m going to be trying to tell you the God is no one to fear. He’s no one to fear. There’s absolutely nothing to fear. There’s nothing to fear, except your own labeling your own unconscious, labeling your rash utterances.
Brian Smith 1:17:31
As we’re going to wrap up here, pretty simple. I do want to talk to you about a concept. We started talking a little bit before we started recording. And that’s the idea of people Why do cert? Why do people come into the world? Where do you see the world heading? Now? What What’s your view of the state of the world and where we’re going?
Mycailin Callahan 1:17:54
Ah, you know, I if you look at any toxic behavior pattern that is making you more and more unhealthy and more and more uncomfortable, eventually you come to a crisis. Okay, where you have to either wake up from the toxic behavior pattern, when I say wake up, I mean, observe yourself, consciously observe that you have been unconsciously doing the same thing over and over again. I see the world coming either to a place of crescendo of toxicity. It’s all hypothetically possible. Okay. If enough people can be awakened and that’s kind of why I’m coming out of the closet as a mystic now. If enough people can accept the message that they are responsible for the thinking that is creating their experience, and take charge over their mind supervise their minds, observe their minds and their emotions being created by their self talk until the chooser is awakened by all that observing where they just say why should I? Why should I suffer? Why should I? Okay, looks like something really terrible has happened? Will suffering make it better? If enough people can come to that and say, You know what, I think I’ve cried enough. I think I’ve cried enough. I think now I’m going to live in tribute to love my being heroic. And what I do my loving heroically okay? If enough people can come to that, then the world has a chance of not coming to a negative crescendo. It can just sort of even out undo the toxicity less than the fear of the people who are right now like in the United State. So we have such a divisive pneus. And I’ve talked to a lot of people on the other side, I used to be in that camp in that party. Now, I’m not particularly either, but they’re all in fear. That’s why the news media has discovered that frightened, angry people check the news more so they can sell more headspace. Okay, so they couch everything in the most alarming terms to get people to keep coming back. This is toxic. This is not helpful. This is not in concert with the wheel that is holy, although it serves to wake some people up. So if we can soothe each other’s fears and show one another, like the people on the other side who think we want to kill them off, or whatever crazy thing somebody has planted in their head to grow there to fester. All right, and we can show them love. Just like I continued to show dad love. Okay. Eventually the hot coals poured on the forehead, of the person who’s who’s being unkind and we continue to love them, they have to see it. Eventually, they have to see that they’re creating their own fears that they’re the fears are not founded in an objective viable reality.
Brian Smith 1:21:24
But yes, yeah. Because you mentioned earlier, I think you said, I think we were recording, you talked about people with nd ease coming back to help like in the rest of us. What are you thoughts about other people that who haven’t experienced NDAs? Do you think there are people that are here for this time?
Mycailin Callahan 1:21:42
Say again, what do you think
Brian Smith 1:21:44
there are people that are here for this time that try to help us through? I hear a lot of people say we’re in a, we’re at a crisis point. And there are people that are coming in deliberately because of this time?
Mycailin Callahan 1:21:56
Um, I think, I’m just guessing no, as a scientist, I, you know, I can only tell you what I think. Um, I think that the people who can help with this time, and who came here to help with this time, have already been here a long while. And the new people coming in are hopefully going to enjoy the fruits of our, the older people’s influence, to make things better for them. Okay, because it’s like, I have nieces and nephews, and no children of my own. Alfred wrecked that for me. But I am motivated to help improve things for my nieces and nephews, and I’m motivated to help improve things for future generations. I’m a biologist by training, interdisciplinary, natural sciences with an emphasis on marine systems ecology. I can I know what’s happening because of climate change. And I know it’s real. And I know it at a at a level of physics and chemistry of the ocean, and how it’s going to change because of the change in temperature, what it’s going to do to the physics, what it’s going to do to the chemistry, and what that’s going to do to the life forms living in the ocean, and how that is then going to redound out into the rest of the environment and infect the rest of the world. So all of that matters to me at a very intricate level of behavior. I prefer to believe that we can because all things are hypothetical. And being a fan of Schrodinger, I prefer to believe that we can actually with enough love, with enough conscious awareness being channeled into it, that we can summon an outcome that will be beneficial to all like, people freak out about the idea about volcanoes erupting and stuff. But if it’s not, if it’s a volcanic eruption, for instance of the right magnitude in the right place, it can actually lower global temperature. And not too, it can do it really dramatically. Or it can do it just enough, just enough to give us more time to get our act together. So that rising sea levels don’t start inundating coastal homes. As to that even that would be good in a way because the people who live on the coast, everything has its redemption, are the people with the money and the connections to say, hey, guess what? Climate change is real. My house is underwater. Maybe we should do something about this. They’re the ones who have the connections and the money. So
Brian Smith 1:24:54
that’s a good point. There’s a lot of prime real estate disappearing.
Mycailin Callahan 1:24:59
They’re the ones who will Make a difference when it starts impacting their pocketbooks. All right? All right. So um, you know, nobody wants to see anybody suffer. But if that suffering actually leads to a good outcome, the suffering is redeemed by the good outcome.
Brian Smith 1:25:15
Yeah, that and that’s, that’s where we’re coming back to, you know, and I think that I love your I love your story. I love the way you tell it. And, you know, I try to use analogies to help people understand about, you know, like suffering in and they’re like, Well, not nothing would be worth this. And I’m like, Well, you think we take our child to the doctor to get a shot, and the child screams bloody murder because they don’t like the fact they got a shot. But we give them the shot to protect them from a virus. And sometimes things happen to us that we don’t like, but it’s for our own benefit down the road. And we don’t get to see it till you know, you and I are both in our 60s. And when you’re in your 60s, it’s easier to start to see these things because it’s played out over a longer time. So the terrible thing that happened to me when I was 12 Doesn’t seem so terrible now because I can see how it’s been redeemed as you as you put it.
Mycailin Callahan 1:26:09
Yeah. Well, you asked about. You asked about going backwards in time and reassigning significances. I don’t know that you can’t actually change the timeline that you experiences having been yours. For many years, I lived in the pervasive experience of my terrible childhood. Oh, okay. Until Until the prank was revealed at age 20. Okay. And in laughter I realized I was the one who had assigned all the significance is that made it such a terrible thing.
Brian Smith 1:26:49
Yeah. Well, you get back to your point lucidity. You know, and it’s, there’s one of my favorite songs ever is called Silent lucidity by a group called Queen’s Reich. And they talk about, it even starts with you know, I woke to the thought of, or the dream of someone dying someone, someone leaving the dream. That’s that was a lie. Someone living the dream. And this world that we live in, when you when you can wake up in the dream, and understand that one day, you’re going to wake up for real. But when you can wake up in the dream, it changes your view on everything.
Mycailin Callahan 1:27:25
It does, and it changes what you can do within the venue. It changes the way the venue responds to you. It changes it changes the way you experience, anything that happens to you, you’re experiencing it as the consciousness in which it unfolds. And you’re deciding what it means you decide, well, it should what it shall mean to you, what shall I teach myself from this? What shall I let this teach me, okay? And it’s such a blessing place to be you know, it’s a, it’s such a, until we’re until we’re back again, with in the terminal with every one that we love in your united and that does happen, okay. And hopefully we all awaken to the point to where we can come in and out of all sorts of other venues because there are many, many worlds to be visited. And never forget our divine identity never come to fall asleep again, in a dream of some venue of some world where we’re a character who can suffer loss and die, we wake up, that’s getting our wings, because that’s what the wings are symbolic of the ability to come and go without losing your lucidity, your mobile. That’s what I have become like a piece of a cog, a cog in the machine that woke up in New itself as the machine and then floated off into the cosmos. Laughing having a good time. You know, just a freewheeling cog here. I’m having a grand time. Well, that’s a good,
Brian Smith 1:29:01
that’s a great way to wrap up. While I wait for you to do those. Tell people where they can find out more about you. I know you’ve got a couple or several books. So talk about your books and what they are about.
Mycailin Callahan 1:29:13
Okay, well the first book is called The Fiddler’s laughing bride. I assume we can post you can post for me on link. Sure. Absolutely. A Fiddler’s laughing bride and it is a memoir. And this is about my relationship with Michael and how I came to these physical for their actual recounting of the events through my life and how they impacted what I learned from them. How Michael brought me to this place of lucidity, okay, up to this current moment that intertwines because in with the fiction series in 1995 Michael had said to me, don’t don’t marry your first spouse, first spouse, Bob, nice guy, but he had said Don’t marry him. He’s not really for you. he’ll be nice but 1995 I told Michael leave maybe 9095, six years into the marriage Michael returned he had been there all along. He told me when bad things were about to happen warn me of imminent danger regularly. But he had kept quiet for those six years. And he came back. And he started dictating these books into my head, literally a stream of words. He lit me up, woke me up with kundalini awakening at the 1995 I think I was 36, something like that. And I said, go sit in front of the word processor, I have a story to tell you, I promise, it’ll be a great adventure. And this series of fiction books began to pour out of my psyche. Like another of your guests said, they just sort of drop into your headspace. And there they are. And so that world, that fictional world, as we call it, fictional, which is since all dreams are equally real, and equally unreal, they’re just dreams. The truth is one and anything else is a dream. And all mine space is accessible to everybody. There’s no such thing as fictional worlds. They’re all equally fictional. Okay, so that means it’s irrelevant. I mean, calling them fictional is silly. Once you’ve imagined the thing, and even the Christ told us, if you imagine it, you might as well go and do it in physicality, because you’re creating it as a reality, at some level, put in your mind and your attention on it. ruminating on it, you create it? Well, this world, this fictional series, basically hijacked my life. And it felt to me really weird, because I was getting ready to go into graduate school for marine biology. And all of a sudden, I’m going, I’m writing Why am I writing? I’m not a writer. I think mine was like, right, it’ll sell at the appropriate time. Well, so my experience of this is, uh, it hijacked my life. So that series that fiction series intertwines with my life by so drastically affecting my life. Okay. And I found in the process of writing it that a lot of times I couldn’t make characters do things I wanted them to do to take the story in the direction I thought it should go, they just wouldn’t I and I’m the one with my fingers on the keyboard. How does that happen? So I began to wonder about the nature of what was actually happening. I was like, Okay, I hadn’t figured out yet that sense. It’s all dreams. All dreams are equally real. All dreams are equally unreal. So they all they all count, right? Anyway, so that series of books. Now, I’ve realized that on some level, I’ve created those worlds. I’ve created those characters, and I’m responsible for them. And I have to help evolve them. And so I have begun to interact with those worlds in that series and later books. There’s six of them in the series. Two of them are up there called the vampire Grail affairs. And the Fiddler’s laughing bride, the memoir, those three are all available at cracked pot. publications.com. Okay, yeah, well, my motto is leaking light into a world of shadows. Okay. May we all be crackpots leaking? Like? Yeah. So, um, yeah, they can find that there. And I think that they’ll, they’ll, they’ll find if they read these books, they are books, teaching all the fiction, teaching all the same principles that Michael has taught me. But through a very sexy story of vampires and forgiveness and redemption and transformation. That would attract a certain set of readers that would never read a spiritual memoir. Yeah, so the two of them get the Fiddler’s laughing bride and the vampire Grail affairs reach a much bigger audience than I could with the same concepts just in the memoir. So those are available, and I’m going to give you a special coupon for our subscribers a coupon code they can enter to get 20% off. Okay. And, um,
Brian Smith 1:34:27
yeah, sounds great. Yeah. So people can email you through your website?
Mycailin Callahan 1:34:33
No, they can’t email me directly through my website. But if you could post links to my Facebook, can you do that? So that they can they can reach me through Facebook, and then I’m happy to give also my email address, which is my Killeen firstname.lastname@example.org. And I know you’ll post it on the video. so that people can find it. Yeah. Michael anymore gene because my name is spelled strangely, but you’ll see it written out there. And what else?
Brian Smith 1:35:09
That’s it. That’s it. So I really I’m glad we got to do this. We’ve We’ve been friends on Facebook for a while. It’s first time we’ve talked face to face. I really appreciate your time me being here today.
Mycailin Callahan 1:35:21
I really hope we get to talk again, Brian, because I already love you.
Brian Smith 1:35:26
Yeah, there’s well we have a lot more to talk about. So I’m sure we’ll do this again. All right, enjoy the rest of your day.
Mycailin Callahan 1:35:33
Thank you, Brian. You too. Bye